I can't even concentrate with my papers today..
You know the feeling???
Having flashes of unrelated stuff flashing across your eyes,
When you're trying hard to concentrate...

Now...
Even when I'm home,
I'm still thinking...

What's wrong with me!!!!
Can't I just act as if it means nth to me???

I'm going crazy!!!
Really crazy!!!!
:(

My life is already like shit,
What more will be taken away from me???
I really hate my life...
Like totally...

I guess it's time for me to change myself..
Being nice, girls don't like...
Fine...
I'll become one bad guy...
One whom only cares for himself...

Never had I wanted a devastating, depressed life like this...

It's no one's fault... Just mine!!!!
I just hope that I dun live in this world...
No need take exams,
No need feel for anything,
No need to care about anything...

I'm tired...
Exhausted...

Needs a hug and a shoulder to lean on...
For I have my weak moments...

How I wish I could just pass away on the day of accident...
Angie...
Thanks for the pass few days...
I'm easily satisfied...
Thus,
SMS was enough for me...
Wish you hapiness...
Wish you lucks!!!
The last SMS was true from my inner self...
I really miss you...
Always...saying bye to you from my life...
Take care!

Its my life...

My heart had shattered like a piece of glass...
Dropped onto a hard ground,
Shattering into many small pieces which can never been sticked back together again,
For there would always be even smaller fragments missing...

In the past,
I could hear my heart pumping....
But i guess...
It had just died out...

Its my life*...
I've just got to live with it...

Whoots Oooo Weee...Cheers to my life..hahhas (as i stop my tears)

I'm just silly thinking that it is some kind of surprise...

I thought i could climb up again...

But i guess i'm just too silly..

It is not possible for me to do it....

Not again...

I'll never be able to do it...

I'm tired,

Exhausted...

Didn't really expected a sms to be so heartbroken and...

I guess living in my own emo world is still the best...

I have now came to realise,

There is no such thing as a wondeful or nice dream or sweet dreams...

Sleepless night....

Helpless....

For i can do nth about it....

I planned to do so many things,

but now...

I just have to throw everything to the back of my mind like what i did in the past...

I'm falling again.....

Into my pit darkness of emo world...

Emotions swept past me...

Can't believe that tears roll down my cheeks as if i wrote an essay...

I couldn't do anything,

but just...

Staring at the ceiling...

Stare....

And....

Stare.......

why can't i just love someone,

For i ask for nth in return...

Nothing....

I'm just a useless stupid dumb guy,

which every girl could get by just walking on the streets....

*Broken heart....

Tears falling with the random gush of wind blowing into the room....

But i only sat on my bed and stare at the post...

The post....

Just enough...

Soooo cute right:)

Went ang mo kio for breakfast,
then went to "bai" my wai po @ Mandai...


After which i Went Pasir Ris mac to study today...
Quite productive,
Cuz i think because the place is not so noisy...:)
Study until like mad....

After that took bus home....
Hate taking bus alone...
Damn sianz....

Can't wait for the exams to be over....
Really hope can get over it soonnnn:)

Happy to be given a chance: )
Hope this would be the turning point in life for me:)

Tanning....:)

Went tanning like finally today....
After like so many days of school work...

But....

The dark clouds covered my lovely sun :(
Hais...
So i went to gym instead,
Training like mad these days for Nafa Test....
Run And Gym Like Siao....
hahahas...

Wanted to start studying when i reached home,
but went to sleep instead...
Serious lack of sleep...:(

I MUST START STUDYING TOMORO...
going changi airport to study...
Hope it will be a fruitful one...:)

WO JING TIAN HAO XIN FU!!!!
(learn from a korean drama)*
hahahhas....

smileZzzzz...

Sent her something today,
The smile on her face made everything worthwhile...
I think this is what's called love bah...
Giving something to the other party,
And not asking anything in return...

The most important thing is that she's happy....:)

Getting on in life...

I had been thinking back these days....
Thinking about the past...
I felt i'm really not a good guy after all,
Or else why do all my ex leave my life...

I really feel lonely at times...
Really lonely...
Emoing had somehow got into my life since the first broke up,
And it is staying there forever....

I tried loving someone again...
And there, i fall hard on the ground again...
I gave in everything i had,
Love? Care? And concern?
I bought what you need without you saying,
I fetch you from school worrying that you will be bored...
Wait for you to lock up the room,
Thinking that you're such a poor thing...

These memories kept me laughing at myself...
And tears seemed to fall as i laugh...

I'm now finally letting go...
Trying hard to care for someone and not asking anything in return...
Maybe this would be better,
For i myself know she doesn't even like me a tiny bit....

All the best for me...
Hope for the best in everything...