Getting on in life...

I had been thinking back these days....
Thinking about the past...
I felt i'm really not a good guy after all,
Or else why do all my ex leave my life...

I really feel lonely at times...
Really lonely...
Emoing had somehow got into my life since the first broke up,
And it is staying there forever....

I tried loving someone again...
And there, i fall hard on the ground again...
I gave in everything i had,
Love? Care? And concern?
I bought what you need without you saying,
I fetch you from school worrying that you will be bored...
Wait for you to lock up the room,
Thinking that you're such a poor thing...

These memories kept me laughing at myself...
And tears seemed to fall as i laugh...

I'm now finally letting go...
Trying hard to care for someone and not asking anything in return...
Maybe this would be better,
For i myself know she doesn't even like me a tiny bit....

All the best for me...
Hope for the best in everything...