I'm just silly thinking that it is some kind of surprise...

I thought i could climb up again...

But i guess i'm just too silly..

It is not possible for me to do it....

Not again...

I'll never be able to do it...

I'm tired,

Exhausted...

Didn't really expected a sms to be so heartbroken and...

I guess living in my own emo world is still the best...

I have now came to realise,

There is no such thing as a wondeful or nice dream or sweet dreams...

Sleepless night....

Helpless....

For i can do nth about it....

I planned to do so many things,

but now...

I just have to throw everything to the back of my mind like what i did in the past...

I'm falling again.....

Into my pit darkness of emo world...

Emotions swept past me...

Can't believe that tears roll down my cheeks as if i wrote an essay...

I couldn't do anything,

but just...

Staring at the ceiling...

Stare....

And....

Stare.......

why can't i just love someone,

For i ask for nth in return...

Nothing....

I'm just a useless stupid dumb guy,

which every girl could get by just walking on the streets....

*Broken heart....

Tears falling with the random gush of wind blowing into the room....

But i only sat on my bed and stare at the post...

The post....

Just enough...

Soooo cute right:)

Went ang mo kio for breakfast,
then went to "bai" my wai po @ Mandai...


After which i Went Pasir Ris mac to study today...
Quite productive,
Cuz i think because the place is not so noisy...:)
Study until like mad....

After that took bus home....
Hate taking bus alone...
Damn sianz....

Can't wait for the exams to be over....
Really hope can get over it soonnnn:)

Happy to be given a chance: )
Hope this would be the turning point in life for me:)

Tanning....:)

Went tanning like finally today....
After like so many days of school work...

But....

The dark clouds covered my lovely sun :(
Hais...
So i went to gym instead,
Training like mad these days for Nafa Test....
Run And Gym Like Siao....
hahahas...

Wanted to start studying when i reached home,
but went to sleep instead...
Serious lack of sleep...:(

I MUST START STUDYING TOMORO...
going changi airport to study...
Hope it will be a fruitful one...:)

WO JING TIAN HAO XIN FU!!!!
(learn from a korean drama)*
hahahhas....

smileZzzzz...

Sent her something today,
The smile on her face made everything worthwhile...
I think this is what's called love bah...
Giving something to the other party,
And not asking anything in return...

The most important thing is that she's happy....:)

Getting on in life...

I had been thinking back these days....
Thinking about the past...
I felt i'm really not a good guy after all,
Or else why do all my ex leave my life...

I really feel lonely at times...
Really lonely...
Emoing had somehow got into my life since the first broke up,
And it is staying there forever....

I tried loving someone again...
And there, i fall hard on the ground again...
I gave in everything i had,
Love? Care? And concern?
I bought what you need without you saying,
I fetch you from school worrying that you will be bored...
Wait for you to lock up the room,
Thinking that you're such a poor thing...

These memories kept me laughing at myself...
And tears seemed to fall as i laugh...

I'm now finally letting go...
Trying hard to care for someone and not asking anything in return...
Maybe this would be better,
For i myself know she doesn't even like me a tiny bit....

All the best for me...
Hope for the best in everything...

Thinking through......

There's a lot in life to be learnt..
People always say part and parcel of life.....
And Life Goes On....
But when things really happen,
No one really cares about these phrases,
As they dun really help...

We face new barriers after the other...
People call them "stepping stones"
Do you really think they are stepping stones???
I think they should be called "slippery stones"...
Because....
They made you fall so hard,
As a wrong move,
Will make you slip off it,
And fall hard on the ground....

I bet everyone has been through the...
roughest...
emotional...
exhausted....
physical.......
painful....

FALLLLLLLL!!!!!!

It all depends on ourselves to climb or stand up...
As this is the only way out...
I will someday stand up a day...
But i'm still trying...
Trying very hard each day to forget....
Forget the past.....

------"Cast the Past"-------------

life.

It seemed as if it is the end of the world,
However...
We have the recover over time, to wipe off this thought.
Have you tried packing your time table full,
Making it so tight that you have no time to think abt other stuff?
Have you you tired entering into the emo world,
Listening to your ipod all the time?

I've tired it all...
I was tired abt everything...
Putting a strong front to prevent others to see how weak i am...
Always smiling as if i dun care...
Sometimes, i just feel that i'm so fake...
SO FAKE!!!

Life is just so boring....